Aston is Aston...ishing

Ok, so after some encouragement I decided to adopt Camilla's self-appreciation scheme. It is true that we all focus on the negative too much, and I feel that we are starting to focus on the negative of other people too much aswell. We really need to change. This may be boring for you, and so please don't feel oblidged to read, but I do recommend you try this yourself. It makes you feel better about yourself :).

So, here is what I like about myself (even though I may complain sometimes):

I love my hair. It is quite a unique colour and has bits of blonde, brown and even a coppery-gold. It is usually straight without much use of electrical appliances, but can also curl easily which means it is versitile. I don't ever want to dye it incase I lose my colour :)

My eyes. They change colour ranging from grey, blue, green and sometimes a hazel colour. This means I never get bored of them. I know how strange that sounds but it's true. Similarly, I swear they are mood eyes. They are green when I am really happy or excited, and then blue/grey when I'm sad or nervous. I may just be imagining this but it makes me feel special in a little way.

I don't get spots that often. I mean of course I get the odd few and ususally more when I have a cold or something, but I am really lucky compared to some people who have acne or a lot of spots, and can't help it.

I am quite slim despite eating what I want, and not doing much exercise. I think this is because I eat healthy things too, as I like them aswell. Its all about balance. I also drink lots of water. Its mainly all I drink! With the exercise, it seems walking around school and up and down the stairs are enough for me.

I also have a 0.73 waist-to-hip ratio, which is apparently good.

I am quite intelligent. I did really well in my GCSEs and I worked to get there. Now I am doing 4 AS Levels, and although I find them difficult sometimes I am actually coping quite well. I also know lots of random pointless things that do end up becoming useful. This is the product of programmes such as QI.

I have also been told I am a brilliant mathematician ;)

I am outstanding for the good reasons. In comparison to the bad. In other words, I can stand out when I want to.

And what I think is the most important thing of all is that I am a good person. I can have a laugh, but I am also sensible. I always try my best at things and try to do what is right. Furthermore, I am a good friend. I always try to do things in the best interest of my friends and family and am always there to support them. I enjoy helping them and trying to do special things for them (no matter how big or small). It is really hard to show how much you care for people and so I do this by trying to be just a text or a phone call away, even if it doesn't always work out that way.

Oh, and I am really strange. But that's a good thing. It means I'm individual.

These are a few of my favourite things...

Today I asked my sister to name ten of her favourite things, spur of the moment in no particular order, and this is what she said:

1. Hot Chocolate

2. Milkshake

3. Milk

4. Horlicks

5. Cookies

6. Cake

7. Sweets

8. Chocolate

9. Parsnips

10. Mr Reader

She does make me giggle. x

2009...wow that went fast.

So, 2009 is actually over and I know I always say it but it went so quickly. I feel that so much happened last year, even though I suppose nothing really did. It is little personal things I think. Stuff like house arts (twice), house charities, random school trips; maths trips, oxbridge trip, my Mum's party, other peoples parties, tag days, sleepovers, Murder Mystery play, study leave, GCSES, Summer, McFly, Thorpe Park, Mum breaking her foot, Results Day, A Levels, Christmas, New Years and just random days out and at school. Its amazing how many memories I have from normal lessons.

But, I realised that all of these things are good memories, or memories at all, because of the people they involve. I grew closer to a lot of people in 2009 and became friends with people I didn't really think I would. 2009 really made me appreciate who is in my life, and how much I don't want things to change - which is really annoying.

I also developed as a person in 2009 and am now a little bit more sure of who I am, and I'm not planning on changing that for anyone. Of course, the future is a large, white canvas and I have no idea what it holds, but at least I know how I want to go forward - in myself.

Admittedly, it had its downsides but I think last year may be one of the best years to date.

I apologise for how sentimental, or whatever, this is but I am in one of those reminiscing moods. I don't want things to change. But, thank you everyone who was part of 2009 - in a large way or a small. And I hope your 2009, or 2010 for that matter, is as good as mine was.

I guess time flies when you're having fun

if time exists that is

Pondering Thoughts.

Upon reading 'The Time Traveler's Wife' (which I love so far) I came across one quote that made me think quite a bit. I have heard of this before, but not thought about it as much as I have this time.

"The choices we're working with here are a block universe, where past, present and future all coexist simultaneously and everything has already happened; chaos, where anything can happen and nothing can be predicted because we can't know all the variables; and a Christian universe in which God made everything and it's all here for a purpose but we have free will anyway."

Is this true? I know the book is fiction, but this is also philosophy in its own right. Right? I chose not to believe that past, present and future are coexisting altogether right now. That is why they have the name they have. Although, I can see how this is possible but don't want it to be. I want to have a choice in what I do! Why is everything predetermined? Does this also mean that Fate is true, or non-existent as it may mean both, but yet cannot be both. I am just confusing myself now.

Secondly, Chaos. This can't be true can it, or we would not be able to predict things that science can? And if this is true it means we are responsible for everything? Argh!

Lastly, God and religion. I want to believe this and in writing a debate with Camilla I kind of convinced myself more, yet at the same time there is no real proof and science is such a strong contender.

I really am cofused, can anyone help?!

Another quote which made me think, but not in as much depth or with as much confusion is:

"Why is love intensified in absence?"

This is true. Full stop. Take any sort of love. Love between family is intensified by the feeling of insecurity and homesick-ness. Love between friends is intensified by the feeling of boredom and loss. Finally, and probably most obviously, is what we immediately think of as Love. Although I have not much experience myself, I understand that if there is a true love for someone there is a feeling of such great loss, sorrow and an empty feeling consumes the body. Love, a funny little thing eh?

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I'm so scared, but I don't show it.

Gosh. Hasn't the previous year just gone so quick?! I remember sitting in the canteen for the end of year assembly this time last year like it was, well as the cliche goes, yesterday. Year 10 is almost over. All the pressure, fun times and worrying. And well thinking about it, I am so scared about the future. One more year at Fort Pitt all together and then it is basically independence. It is going to be very difficult in the next few years having to think about "Where will this lead me in life?". I feel like Childhood is finally slipping away and I really don't want it to! To much independence for my liking. Therefore, I have decided that I really am going to make the most of Year 11. So prior WARNING: Be constantly prepared for me taking photos next year because I will be!! x

Long time, no blog x

To start I just want to say what lovely weather for a week off school! Which brings me to my next point.... a week of freedom! I thought I was going to be so bored this week but at the moment I really am not! Nonetheless, it is only Tuesday and a week is long!

It is going to be so strange going back to school as we are going to be confined, yet have freedom in some sense. Strange. On a positive note I get to see EVERYONE again! Yay for everyone!

Unfortunately, I must mention one worldwide topical thing - R.I.P Michael Jackson, although he may have done some strange and awful things, no one deserves to do that young.

Okay, I shall stop my random ranting now. I have missed my outbursts of blogs!

Hope all that have a week off enjoy it.

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Life is a maze, Love is a riddle...

To begin I would like to explain this is going to be an extremely random blog, of many thoughts I have pondered.

Firstly, the song 'The Show' by Lenka, which is where the title of this blog came from, is a very good song that I would recommend. Also, the lyrics are very true.

This brings me to my second point. Why is life is so confusing and irritating! Whether it be friends, family, exams, or making decisions, the human race never seems to have a complete break! Furthermore, this can be reflected in the recent GCSE examinations. I do not understand the relevance of ideas in context as the questions they ask are just related to chemistry, not the specific topic. This, therefore, removes the idea of "in context". Another example is the German reading test. Why is the text, "Without me the roads would be empty and so would your fridges", relevant at all to anything we have learnt in the previous two years! It is just ridiculous!

Ok, enough of my rambling. Last point I would like to make is a fact.

Fact!: Marilyn Monroe was a size 16.

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