Feeling sorry for yourself, and your present condition, is not only a waste of energy but the worst habit you could possibly have.

Dale Camegie

Promise you won't forget me, because if I thought you would, I'd never leave.

'Winnie the Pooh' - AA Milne

There's no use in weeping,

Though we are condemned to part:

There's such a thing as keeping

A remembrance in one's heart:

'Parting' - Charlotte Bronte

Perhaps, infact, we are never alone.

W.H. Auden

To question is to grow.

Heather Small - 'Proud'

And coldest the remembrance of the wider ocean - wealth, caste, custom - intervened between me and what I naturally and inevitably loved.

Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte

Everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can come together.

Marilyn Monroe

To see a World in a grain of sand,

And Heaven in a wild flower,

Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand

And Eternity in an hour.

William Blake

A man falls in love through his eyes, a woman through her ears.

Woodrow Wyatt

And when the future hinges on the next words that are said, don't let logic interfere, believe your heart instead.

Philip Robison

In the boot of my old headteacher's car...

Long time, no blog. But I guess now is the right time to blog again what with at least twelve inches of snow in places! As of now, Kent in the South of England is submerged in a foot of snow and its absolutely freezing; definitely time for Christmas I think! As a result, schools have been closed and life has taken that turn that happens whenever it snows. Have you ever noticed how the world changes when it snows? Of course, physically the world changes; the beautiful blanket of white, the frosted trees and vegetation, the crystalline icicles that grow top down (You can probably tell that I see the world through rose-tinted glasses). But it's not just that. When it snows, there is an untangeble feeling in the air... its magical. Friends see each other; family care for one another; strangers are willing to lend a helping hand as if they are old friends reunited; neighbours worry about each other; people worry about those they do not necessarily know, such as the elderly. Take a walk in the snow; people talk to each other and smile at one another! There is a sense of community - when really, the logical and human nature thing to do would be to isolate yourself, help only yourself; survival of the fittest. This concept, is love in the simpliest sense of the word. Love does exist. Then, the snow melts and the atmosphere melts with it...life carries on oblivious to what has happened. It always puzzles me, but I love it all the same.

Anyway, during this snow day (or should that be week?) I have had some experiences myself. I have discovered that my sister and her best friend are absolutely crazy with their snow song (that actually worked) and laying face down in the snow. I have done more exercise in the past week than I have in the past six months! I realised that I miss people much more when I am actually seperated from them by an ocean of snow - and it may aswell be an actual ocean. The same people and same scenery gets a bit repetitive :') People are much more willing to reply to stupid things I ask in the snow! And when there was snow, and the week before really, I asked myself the question; what even is my life?!....

Lately, my life has been a whirlwind of so many different things and yet I can't explain it. Everything is so muddled and confused, I'm always busy and I do stupid things that I regret momentarily afterwards. Yet, everything seems to be working out fine on my behalf and I'm enjoying life at the moment - its funny to look back at things, be like "Whaaa?" and laugh about it. I think it is a result of my increase in self-confidence, which probably stems from being in sixth form and knowing everyone a whole lot better- having the best friends in the world. Let me give you two examples; one, I had a go at my favourite teacher the other week because they were "disrespectful to me" and made them apologise sincerely - and there were no repercussions, thankfully :) Two; today I went for a walk to the shop with my Mum and in there we saw my old headteacher, who offered us a lift home. We accepted, and that is how I ended up in the boot of my old headteacher's car :'). It's just so random. But then again, who said random was bad? At least my life isn't boring! :)

This probably made no sense at all and was really not so interesting to read as it was to think about and write. I'm sorry for my lack of coherency but I hope it made some sense....

Enjoy the rest of the snow, everyone and keep well :) x

Love is like pi: natural, irrational, and very important.

Lisa Hoffman.

Did you just say that?

Each year I find myself in situations where people say things that really deserve to be written down. Kind of like Mr Dixon's amazing quote wall. Therefore, last year I decided to make a quote page in the back of my school planner. It provided me with lots of amusement, and never failed to make me laugh and so I did it again this year. Please enjoy the following quotes from Year 2009/10 :)

Some of these may not make sense out of context, or that may be the exact reason they were funny.
Also, if you think of anymore that I forgot to write down/ran out of room for, please comment them below!

Gemma: I'm a Yedi.
Mr Reader: Y'know if you share headphones you get ear germs? Aston: Ewwww!
Mrs Commons: Wassup!
*Irish accent* potatoes
Gemma: Look it's a Z for Unicorn (yes, she was being completely sincere)
Gemma: (To Nikkita) Oh get you Mr Read...I mean Mrs Reader
Gemma: No drugs are as good as being with your friends :')
Mrs Commons: Use it or lose it babyyy!
Mrs Commons: That's why I'm an economist - I don't like washing up.
Mr Bennett: They are in a...*insignificant mumble - slams door* :O
Gemma: (Constantly to the baseball tune) Maths, maths, maths, maths, maths, maths, maths.....
...maths, maths, maths....*Chinese voice* Sue Hunterrrrr!
...maths, maths, maths...*deep voice* Mr Readerrrrr!
Shani: What cattle as in elephants?
Mr Higbee: Shade means Oh damage
Mrs Commons: Nomi-nominal...Anumanum do do dododo
Camilla: Nikkita, what's in your sandwich? Gemma: Indian stuff. Camilla: Everything from India in that sandwich?
Jess: Condemn?! Like kill people?!
Lauren: Wouldn't it be funny if we were all like Voldemort?
Mr Reader: (whilst explaining moments) I'm just having a moment :')
Lena: The number 51 is haunting me. If I ever get murdered and you somehow have to investigate it, the number 51 is the place to start!
Gemma: I learn from my steaks.
Gemma: (In her dream) Try my radius ;)
Camilla: I'm not usually a violent person but I did actually push her books off the table.
Dad: I just want a cup of bloody coffee!
Mum: I need to plug in my phug.
Dad: (Whilst watch the film 'Orphan' *SPOILER ALERT*) I bet she's 34 or something. Doctor: She's actually 33. Aston: Oh my god!! That's brilliant!!
Gemma: Are you calling Aston Jesus? Aston, get against the wall I am going to nail you.
Mum: What are you a tank?! Taylor: What, a fish tank?
Mr Hawley: Good News - you have me. Bad news - you have a test.
Lena: Do we have...the woman? The pregnant one?
Jennifer: He was served on a plate.
Random sixth former to Mr Reader: You should check out my flashcards ;) Reader: I don't know what to say to that.
Jennifer: You can share his umbrella...ella ella eh eh eh.
Mr Reader: That's why I did physics at degree, because I'm 'ard.
Gemma: I'm ageing rapidly. Alice: You're an Asian rapper?!
Mr Reader: I can't or I'll have to eat myself. (So random)
Jess: (After hearing a loud noise overhead) Murh, probably just a bomb. (It turned out to be the red arrows :'))
Megan: So, the three little pigs went to a restaurant and the first one ordered....food, like sausages or something. No, wait! He can't order sausages as they're pork!
Jennifer: My uncle Gerry...*continues with story*...no wait, his name isn't Gerry it's Eric!
Jack from BYC: (After being told to say something average about yourself) Hi I'm Jack, and I have a goat.
Matt: I got offered guns.

Thank you to everyone who contributed to these quotes. Please continue to say random things, talk out of context and speak before you think :)

If you want more laughs, take a look at Mr Dixon's Quote Wall: http://www.mrdixonsquotewall.co.uk/
I'm going to miss him :')

I haven't blogged in so long, it is quite ridiculous. I didn't even blog during study leave which was the time I planned to begin again. So now I think the only thing is to have a good ol' long, rambly blog...

Time has gone so fast lately, and it isn't nice. Year Eleven is officially over. The past five years have been some of the greatest years of my life (yes, all fifteen of them!) and I don't think I will ever forget them. Is it possible to forget your school years at all? Of course, there has been some bad times but thinking about it, the good times always outweigh the bad. They are worth so much more. From Interform in Year seven (when we won) to our class meal the other evening, L2 has not really changed. There are some differences; some people have changed, the friendship groups have reshuffled, we've all matured; but the dynamic of the class hasn't. We can pull together when we want too and I think we have the best bond as a whole class than any of the others. And now that the compulsory years of Education have passed some people have decided to leave Fort Pitt - maybe to move onto bigger and better things - and I know that it is some of the biggest personalities in the class that have left. School will be much quieter without them. I wish them the best of luck in the future, though.

I am staying on. I couldn't leave Fort Pitt. I am too at home there. In fact, I had my first day back at school today as Sixth Form. It was very unusual wearing our own clothes, yet still having regulations and beginning A2 lessons, when we still have not received our AS results. I think the A2 courses are going to be much better for some reason. Physics seems like a more interesting course, I have the best teachers for maths, English is perfect for me with 'Love Through The Ages' and Economics is pretty similar :') One thing I noticed being a sixth former was that the younger students seem to respect you a lot more. I don't know why, I am only wearing my own clothes :/ Oh well, I'm not going to complain. I think the next two years are going to be great really. Hopefully.

It's also my birthday tomorrow! "Sweet Sixteen". I don't know whether I am excited or not, to be honest. I have not asked for anything in particular - I don't want anything. And it means I am growing up, which I don't want to do. I am considering labelling myself as "15+1" instead of sixteen. My main problem, is that once you are sixteen you have to be seventeen and that just sounds so much older. So much more responsibility follows growing up. I only like responsibility half of the time - not all of the time. For now, I am planning on getting older but not growing up. I'm Peter Pan, just not in Neverland.
On the other hand, I'm wearing a badge if I get one. It's still my birthday after all! And I think I shall have a good day - I will make sure. I get to see my friends, spend time with my family and see that person (who I shouldn't look forward to seeing but do nonetheless). Actually, writing this is making me more exciting :P

I do feel more mature lately. It may be the fact I have recently done my AS exams, or that I am now "Sixth Form", or that I am sixteen tomorrow - I'm just not sure which. I do know that I have matured a lot over the past year though. And that's a good thing in my opinion. I am comfortable with who I am now (most of the time!) and am not as impressionable. I have my opinions, my reasons and am becoming more confident in my personality. I don't know whether other people can tell that or not, however. I shall find out.

Talking of being impressionable, I was discussing this with 'The Physics Bunch' today. I think that if I didn't go to New Zealand I wouldn't have been in the class I am today, and that would have probably completely changed me as a person. Maybe not deep down, but I would have different interests, likes and maybe views on life. I would therefore, like to thank the people I have been with for the last five years for making me the person I am today. I think I am happy with being a complete Nerd because of these people, and may not have been otherwise :')
It is strange thinking how catalytic one event in your life can be. Quite scary too.

Oh, another aspect of time is that I have just finished Stephen Hawking's book 'A Brief History of Time'. It is really interesting and I would recommend it to anyone who has a small interest in that sort of thing. It is almost philosophical, and does not dismiss the idea of a God which is also quite...refreshing. Hawking explains it so well, and is actually rather funny. It is unusual reading a book in which the author talks about the discoveries he made that relate to the theme. So, yes - read it, it isn't very long or difficult :)
I want to meet him!

So, maybe I should finish up with a little summary here. More things have happened, probably, but I don't wish to disclose those over the Internet - anyone can read this :')

I accomplished a lot when I was fifteen, and I have so many memories and so many people to thank. Things like:
- My Birthday party
- McFly at Castle Concerts :')
- Various meals out
- Other birthdays' and parties
- Having a summer in which I was not dependent and managed to do a lot for myself, and learn lot
- Going back to school, and beginning AS levels in Maths, Physics, Economics and English Literature
- Taking part in 'House Arts' and improving my confidence with dancing, singing and acting
- Not being scared to ask for help and get things wrong
- Various school trips
- Helping out at school events including Open Evening and Information Fair
- Finding a true passion and thing I wish to pursue a career in.
- Doing Work Experience for a week in London.
- Making new friends
- Joining MYP
- Being a leader on Focus Days
- Beginning to build a race car (it is still not finish but we hope to be done by July!)
- Getting a place in Sixth Form
- Going to Cambridge
- Finding an interest in Politics (and Nick Clegg)
- Taking my AS levels
- Appreciating what I have in life with friends, family, school and general things.

I hope this year is as good :')

Sorry for the long post. I guess this makes up for lost time.
Enjoy yourselves, until next time :)

x

Stephen Hawking :')

If a June night could talk, it would probably boast it invented romance.

Aston is Aston...ishing

Ok, so after some encouragement I decided to adopt Camilla's self-appreciation scheme. It is true that we all focus on the negative too much, and I feel that we are starting to focus on the negative of other people too much aswell. We really need to change. This may be boring for you, and so please don't feel oblidged to read, but I do recommend you try this yourself. It makes you feel better about yourself :).

So, here is what I like about myself (even though I may complain sometimes):

I love my hair. It is quite a unique colour and has bits of blonde, brown and even a coppery-gold. It is usually straight without much use of electrical appliances, but can also curl easily which means it is versitile. I don't ever want to dye it incase I lose my colour :)

My eyes. They change colour ranging from grey, blue, green and sometimes a hazel colour. This means I never get bored of them. I know how strange that sounds but it's true. Similarly, I swear they are mood eyes. They are green when I am really happy or excited, and then blue/grey when I'm sad or nervous. I may just be imagining this but it makes me feel special in a little way.

I don't get spots that often. I mean of course I get the odd few and ususally more when I have a cold or something, but I am really lucky compared to some people who have acne or a lot of spots, and can't help it.

I am quite slim despite eating what I want, and not doing much exercise. I think this is because I eat healthy things too, as I like them aswell. Its all about balance. I also drink lots of water. Its mainly all I drink! With the exercise, it seems walking around school and up and down the stairs are enough for me.

I also have a 0.73 waist-to-hip ratio, which is apparently good.

I am quite intelligent. I did really well in my GCSEs and I worked to get there. Now I am doing 4 AS Levels, and although I find them difficult sometimes I am actually coping quite well. I also know lots of random pointless things that do end up becoming useful. This is the product of programmes such as QI.

I have also been told I am a brilliant mathematician ;)

I am outstanding for the good reasons. In comparison to the bad. In other words, I can stand out when I want to.

And what I think is the most important thing of all is that I am a good person. I can have a laugh, but I am also sensible. I always try my best at things and try to do what is right. Furthermore, I am a good friend. I always try to do things in the best interest of my friends and family and am always there to support them. I enjoy helping them and trying to do special things for them (no matter how big or small). It is really hard to show how much you care for people and so I do this by trying to be just a text or a phone call away, even if it doesn't always work out that way.

Oh, and I am really strange. But that's a good thing. It means I'm individual.

These are a few of my favourite things...

Today I asked my sister to name ten of her favourite things, spur of the moment in no particular order, and this is what she said:

1. Hot Chocolate

2. Milkshake

3. Milk

4. Horlicks

5. Cookies

6. Cake

7. Sweets

8. Chocolate

9. Parsnips

10. Mr Reader

She does make me giggle. x

2009...wow that went fast.

So, 2009 is actually over and I know I always say it but it went so quickly. I feel that so much happened last year, even though I suppose nothing really did. It is little personal things I think. Stuff like house arts (twice), house charities, random school trips; maths trips, oxbridge trip, my Mum's party, other peoples parties, tag days, sleepovers, Murder Mystery play, study leave, GCSES, Summer, McFly, Thorpe Park, Mum breaking her foot, Results Day, A Levels, Christmas, New Years and just random days out and at school. Its amazing how many memories I have from normal lessons.

But, I realised that all of these things are good memories, or memories at all, because of the people they involve. I grew closer to a lot of people in 2009 and became friends with people I didn't really think I would. 2009 really made me appreciate who is in my life, and how much I don't want things to change - which is really annoying.

I also developed as a person in 2009 and am now a little bit more sure of who I am, and I'm not planning on changing that for anyone. Of course, the future is a large, white canvas and I have no idea what it holds, but at least I know how I want to go forward - in myself.

Admittedly, it had its downsides but I think last year may be one of the best years to date.

I apologise for how sentimental, or whatever, this is but I am in one of those reminiscing moods. I don't want things to change. But, thank you everyone who was part of 2009 - in a large way or a small. And I hope your 2009, or 2010 for that matter, is as good as mine was.

I guess time flies when you're having fun

if time exists that is